Good read, Thank you!
I had a incident a few years back while racing dirt bikes.
I went down in a race and into a tree, a branch impaled my neck, went in about 8", weaved in between my veins at a down word angle ended up very close to my voice box. I had about the size of a silver dollar hole in my neck.
I was very lucky to be alive laying there in the hospital. Lots of things like taking a break from racing and riding was going through my head, or to quit all together.
They stiched me up from the inside out. I spent the next week thinking about motorcycles all together. I had lost a friend 2 years prior on the street bike, we watched him pass away on the side of the road. I thought, now this happened to me. My thoughts were to sell everything and give it up.
I had many conversations about riding over the next two weeks with friends. Anyways, I ended up two weeks to the day, I woke up that morning and I made my self load up my bike into the truck. Then headed our spot, I still had stiches in the neck and hurt a bit. I put my gear on, started the bike and sat there for a while. Just thinking.
I did ride that day and still ride. But I believe if I have not got back on that bike 14 days later I would have quit all together. The meaning to the saying, "if you fall off the horse you gotta get right back on". Makes a whole lot more sense to me now.
Damn, that is some scary stuff there. Everyone has their own level of risk that they are willing to accept to be able to ride. For some people, that first crash is all it takes to get them to reassess their priorities. Others go much further. For me, I think I could stop myself from breathing before I could stop myself from riding. This sport may be the death of me, and I would die a happy and fulfilled man. There is no right or wrong choice here...it is entirely up to the individual. I have had many broken bones, torn ligaments, bleeding, internal damage, and multiple concussions...and I am still racing :-p
A little bit of a sidetrack here about a racer mentality. Most riders when they have a near-crash slow down. They worry, have doubt, or are simply fearful and that causes them to slow. For me, I do the opposite. Dumb, I know but it is true. This last year I had a 'moment' coming out of a turn where I actually highsided the bike but somehow landed back on the seat and was able to keep going. I mean my feet were over my shoulders. I never rolled off the gas and my subsequent lap was actually faster.
When something like that happens I get this feeling in my head that tells me 'Whoa, that was close. There was no way that you should still be on two wheels...BUT YOU ARE! SHIT YEAH! I AM MOTHER F#&$ING INVINCIBLE!' and I grip that throttle harder. Probably not the smartest thing ever, but that's what happens for me.
Kudos to you for getting back on that horse and continuing to do what you love. Some day, you may decide that you do not love to ride any more and that is the day that you must walk away. I am truly hoping that this day never comes for me, but if it does I will walk (limp, crawl) away without a single moment of regret.
This is a really great read. I stepped away from motorcycles because my ego would not let me tell everyone why I REALLY laid my CBR(RIP) down. I didnt LAY it down...I highsided like the guy on the R1 in the vid. Doing stuff I didnt have the skill for. My rebirth was September 26, 2015. I have only done 400 miles since then, but so what. I told myself, if I am going to do this motorcycle thing again, I am starting over from scratch. Thats why I am choosing to take every possible class avaible from MSF before heading to the track. Once I have developed enough balls for a track day...I will be able to put my left hand down too...lol
Welcome back to the sport. My advice would be to take everything at a pace that is natural to you. Check yourself. If you find yourself riding at 100% of your ability then you are destined to crash...dial it back and use your riding time to learn...it will pay bigger returns down the road.